Being ‘Devil’s Daughter’ and seeking catharsis

By Sukant Deepak

In 2015, on the eve of her 18th birthday, everything changed for Vidhie Mukerjea, as her mother Indrani Mukerjea was arrested on the charge of murdering her daughter Sheena Bora. A few months later, Indrani’s husband, media baron Peter Mukerjea, met the same fate.

Vidhie went to Regent’s University London, and over the next few years, maintained a low profile in the media and ‘blocked’ the incident in her mind.

But with her recently released memoir ‘Devil’s Daughter’ (Westland Books), she assures that now she does not operate from a place of fear anymore as she breaks off layers of her conditioning and past trauma.

“Public scrutiny had its place in my mind as I have memories of how both my family and I were treated by the media. However, this book was merely an expression of who I am as a person, an author, and an artist. It highlights my struggles, adventures, and essentially sharing who I am with the world in a raw and authentic form,” she tells IANS.

Vidhie recalls that writing ‘Devil’s Daughter’, which also talks about her anxiety and panic disorder, started as a cathartic release into her laptop with many moments of deep introspection, reliving her past, and going through diverse emotions.

“While also challenging preconceived notions many have about mental health being a taboo topic. Towards the end of writing the book I couldn’t stop thinking about various tough situations people are going through with Covid and otherwise, what their headspace was like at the time and realizing finally we are all essentially going through the same thing internally,” Vidhie says.

For Vidhie, writing the book was also therapy. For the first two years after her parents’ arrest, she was constantly escaping her reality, pretending things were entirely normal and that she was an anomaly and would not need to feel those things.

“The longer I deflected, the bigger the hit was. So yes, writing this was like months of intensive therapy for me,” she says.

Adding that it was “inevitable” for her to talk about her anxiety and panic attacks, she feels that we all want to live in a bubble, pretending all is bright eyed. “We are afraid to let people know we are hurting. I wanted to break that chain, life is about being raw and authentic and writing about it just felt incredible.”

The author writes in the book that she does not understand her mother’s actions.

“There are many things my mum has done, things I won’t be able to forgive her for, but I have taken a path where I will give her a chance. I believe every single person deserves it.

“She told me how hurt and alone she’d felt: that for years she had absolutely no one, but when I reconnected with her she saw light and hope. She told me she had never given up, and would prove her innocence for me…. She promised me she would do whatever it took to mend things with me. I believe her.”

Source: IANS

Indrani Mukerjea, wife of media baron Peter Mukerjea, has been in custody charged with murder of daughter Sheena Bora. Her other daughter, Vidhie, has now written about the messy affair and her own healing.

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